Cutting

I’ve done it again,
I’ve done it before,
I knew I shouldn’t have,
I knew it was wrong.
But I couldn’t help myself.
Running up the stairs, panting,
I dashed to my bed,
Took my savior from the shelf,
Held it steady,
Heart pounding,

Cut.

I’ve done it again.
You told me to stop.
But the world told me to continue.
And so I did.

Cut.

I’ve failed at everything,
You all expect too much.
I can’t take it anymore.
I’m failing at life
At friendship,
At love,
And everything else

Cut.

With gasping breath
And choking sobs
I cry
Holding everything in proved too much.
So I’ve let it all out,
In tears and blood